This year has been so difficult.  You know, if have read my previous posts, that I am a person who tries to keep focused on God’s plan and what He is doing in my life.  I know that all He chooses to do is for our good.  Yet, I am having a “why me” moment.  And that bugs me, because I always tell everyone during their “why me” moments, “why not you?”.  I believe it too.  Why not me?  Because I’ m a good person.  That’s why.  Oh, but the Bible says, no one is good but the Lord.  So I can’t use that excuse.  So let’s call it what it is.  I don’t want to go through this anymore!  I am getting tired.  I am running the race and running the race and I feel like my electrolytes are depleted and my body fat is zero, (ok, the zero part wouldn’t be so bad.)  My feet won’t move, not one more step.  So Lord, Please!  What You doing with me? 

My body, my flesh, says give up.  My flesh says to stop and surrender to the world.  The flesh says the world is stronger than my faith. But I know the Truth that is in Christ.  And what does the Truth say, what does the Bible say?  Keep running, keep your eyes on the Lord, don’t give up, fight the good fight with the only thing you can , the Word of God.  And I must.  Because in the end, it matters.